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finally i opened my absolut vanilla last nite... n i noe wads my limit already... 4 pure shots of 40% alcohol... instant knock out... got a hangover rite now... my head hurts... but my heart hurts more... juz can't slp last nite... dun feel good now... got a meeting lata... b4 my labs, lecs n tut... feel like skipping lessons... got no mood to go to sch at all...

mayb i shld buy more vodka to store up n drink them as water... so i wun think so much... or beta still... if can... die frm drinking... sometimes i realli hope that i wun wake up at all after i'm drunk... coz i wun remember so many things tat i haf to worry about...

why is it that there are so many problems we haf to face n encounter in our short span of life? life is short... y is there always so many bitter n sour things we haf to face? why can't our lives be short yet sweet? why do we always haf to worry abt sch.. family... love... why???

been crying every nite... din noe i've got so much tears to spare... think i shld start saving up my tears by getting myself drunk... so i wun run dry of tears in future...

More Waiting... How Much More Waiting...

ok... i'm confused... i'm confused of how i feel between mi n him... since he booked out on fri... i m pissed... sat oso pissed... even 2dae oso... i duno y... i felt so tired meeting him... its not i dun wan to meet him.. but.. ... i duno... realli duno... i missed him... i waiting for him to book out every week... for 5 days... but i din realise tat even he booked out le... i still haf to wait for him... for him to meet mi.. for him to call mi... sometimes... he said i'll b there in 10mins... but... it will b 10 + 10 = 20mins...

todae whole morning was waiting for a call/msg from him... but nothing... when my fone suddenly rang... i tot finally... he called... but... my heart sank when i saw the msg was not frm him... it realli hurts... even we sort of made up... but... still... there's an aching feeling inside...

now... my feelings are very complex... i shld sae... i dun even noe howi feel now... angry? pissed? hurt? confused? happy? upset? i duno.... realli wish to find a wall and bang right into it...

to all pple who noe mi.... i can haf patience... but... plz.. dun test it... i can wait for u... but... i dun like the waiting process... i hate it... so plz... plz... dun like mi wait... dun....

Day 1 in Sch

today.... 1st day in sch... in free access lab now... this morn kanna dua by my lab lecturer.. &^$%&$^.... si KK Chow... early morning fly mi aeroplane...

was wondering ard in sch since no lab... saw a junior... so i wave n sae hi loh... then she like tio stun... n took abt 5 sec to realise who i m... she sae she do recognise mi... coz i look diff... sae wad i slim dwn liao... n looked prettier... *shy* where got...

got my absolut vanllia frm jian bo today... *woohoo...* can drink until song liao... muahahaha....

tried to change my timetable today... but... invaild... y.... *sob sob sob* *sneeze into glenn's long 4* hahahaha..... >.< keke...

was buying food... then the aunt oso sae i slim dwn liao... but seriously... i never go on diet loh... si aggie... kept saying i go on diet... during holidays... i realli eat n slp... eat n slp... n i slp until 12pm everyday... 1st thing i did when i wake up... was to cook pasta n eat... =p... so n therefore... in conculsion.... its impossible for mi to haf slim dwn... yay... ^.^v...

anyway... went on a crazy shoppong spreed yest.... haha.... bought alot of stuff sia... hehe.... hmm... lets c... shoes... snk jeans... my new gucci rush 2 perfurm... keke... n my undergarments.... wee...... hoho... i oso got the baby jack-jack holder... haha.... can cry one wor... soooo cute... *grin* oya... not forgetting... my gramps got mi this same soft toy that my baby cousin loves and hugs wherever he goes... hehehe.....

still go GE lata... wonder if i wan to go anot... haiz... abit lazy to go sia... no... i shld sae... i got no motivation to go... haiz.... *sign*